I should be counting my blessings. I have four of the cutest, sweetest children in the universe, a roof over my head, food to eat–and for the time being I’m cancer free. My post-therapy scan was clean, huge blessing. Even more of a blessing was that I had almost no side-effects from my RAI. Nothin. I’m not losing my hair, my salivary glands aren’t swollen and sore, I still have my sense of taste, I didn’t gain a bunch of weight… It was pretty much a walk in the park. I did have some mild nausea in the first few days, but a couple days of nausea is nothing to cry about. The one thing I’ve noticed though is that I am super annoyed about things. Things that I should be able to let go. Things that shouldn’t bother me. I am experiencing a lot of anger that I don’t know how to deal with. I find myself incapable of voicing my anger and annoyance with people. Usually that works, I can just cool off, forget it. I really hope this is a strange side-effect of RAI. Maybe a consequence of fluctuating hormones. Maybe my feelings are legitimate. Its hard to tell. I hope I’m not losing my mind. I had always hoped that when I’m a mature older woman I’ll be able to say the things that I think about saying. I just can’t give myself permission to say what I think. Not even with this new perspective I have. Not even as an older and wiser cancer survivor. Hmmph.
July 15, 2008
July 16, 2008 at 5:02 pm
I love the new header – it looks really great. Did you just scan your block prints?
July 17, 2008 at 12:51 pm
Hey, maybe you went hyper- for a while–”irritability” (aka-total, silent rage) was my major symptom last summer. It was like constant, severe PMS. I hope that’s just the hormones adjusting, and I am glad you’re all right!
July 17, 2008 at 12:52 pm
HEY, LOOK! I posted a comment! It worked! I have been keeping close tabs on you, Jes, but have been unable to comment on previous layouts. So YAY, this!
July 17, 2008 at 7:26 pm
Well that is comforting because I think they like to keep us thycans hyper for a few years. I’m on my normal dose of synthroid plus an extra boost of cytomel (or I was at first). Thanks for the tip!
July 18, 2008 at 8:28 pm
Yep, its just a scanned in print.
Thanks!