When I came home with Gabe from the dentist’s office this morning, BJay got up to get the camera.  Half way there he turned around and decided he didn’t want a reminder of what Gabe is like on drugs.  Gabe got his turn at the dentist this morning, they fixed his rotten front teeth.  It is a miracle and his  little smile is so much more adorable than it was before.  Gabe was a little too hard to wake up for my comfort.  I hate the idea of sedation.  It makes me uncomfortable, I spend extra time praying about it the night before… With Asher we just wouldn’t go there.  Aside from the expense, it just feels too dangerous.  It was NOT comforting when the dentist mentioned this case about a little girl who died from overdose of sedatives at the dentist.  I like that I get to be there for the entire procedure and actually watch my children breathing and wiggling around.  Gabe was so small strapped to that little board on the dentist’s chair.  When it was time for him to wake up and answer a question, he was so sleepy.  He was actually snoring.  It took a full 15 minutes of blowing air in his ears and tickling him before one of the hygenists went and got some toys from the prize box and had him pick.  Somehow he mustered the energy to nod his head yes and hold his hand out for a little blue ball.  I wasn’t really worried, but oh it felt like a small miracle to see him respond just then.  I enjoyed the time I got to hold him like a baby and he let me.  And we laughed when he said he was seeing two daddies over there.  And then he asked me where he got the ball he had in his hand since we left the dentist.  The drugs made him forget.  I made Gabe smile at me all day today.  At first to see when the novicane wore off, and then later to just see his pearly whites again.  I love my little boy.  I’m overwhelmed with love for him and I feel blessed that he got to have the dental work he needed without being traumatized by having to remember it happened.